cathuggaa

I don't even know where to start. Can't concentrate, can't think straight. Sadness and darkness filling my heart. It started as simple depression before it began to mutate... I'm lost, even as i try to write, Bees in my brain and sticky tar in my thoughts. Sounds make me want to scream and I've lost my sight. I take no action, only ideas and plots. I want to smash my head of the wall, Cut my self so i dont feel anymore knock my self out so i can forget it all I want pain, domination, macabre and gore. after all i been through, i dont understand. I got strong once before, but now i'm broken again. need to close my eyes and fly to dreamland

I stand in the snow and watch it slowly drift down It dances down like glitter flying in the air Twirling, swirling, drifting And as each flake falls down, it kisses my skin I love how something so small and sweet can envelop an entire nation The purity of untouched and untouchable snow How it sits on the leaves of trees, the roofs of houses and even on the strands of my hair But the next day it could be gone, like a fleeting dream in the middle of the night. The silence it brings is calming; as each flake settles, the quieter it gets. A feeling of freedom comes with virgin snow in the middle of the night When nothing can melt it bu

I feel so run down, so let down. My heart is now only an echo, I cannot swim, only drown. And finally, I've learnt to let go. I want to lie in the snow, Let my body grow numb and cold. Forget all that I know. I am no longer yours to hold. I've been taken for a fool But you were sadly mistaken To me you were so cold, heartless and cruel. It's time for me to reawaken. You were the tamer, who thought they could subdue me Whip me into submission But I was born to fly free Now your consequences are coming to fruition. Look at me and stare in wonder I am not yours anymore Here is the storm and I am the thunder You should have sto

For you to be there would mean the world to me. Nothing could bring me down unless you left. Comfort me, let me know i don't need to be so nervous. Try to soothe the butterflies in my stomach. When i'm feeling all alone and smutty, I crave for you to saunter over and give me what I want. I yearn to please you, give in to your demanding wish But there's an uncontrolled spirit in me that refuses to succumb. You're the one of the select few who can tame me, Turn the lioness into a playful defenseless cub. You need to be my lion so we can make a pride. Together we will stand strong.

Your body is tall and powerful But your touch is gentle. Your eyes possess electrifying emotion, They're expectant, sad and lusty. You're a gentleman And a tender soul. I feel captivated in your embrace And I hope you'll never hurt me. I feel like i'm running in circles and sometimes my rewards a fruitless. However whenever you kiss me goodbye, I know I can't give up just yet. I love the way you're old fashioned And I love the way you make me falter, When noone else could without trying. I love the life in your eyes that sparkle so generously. When you steal a glance, you leave me in a stupor And I wish I wasn't so goddamn sh