I don't even know where to start.
Can't concentrate, can't think straight.
Sadness and darkness filling my heart.
It started as simple depression before it began to mutate...
I'm lost, even as i try to write,
Bees in my brain and sticky tar in my thoughts.
Sounds make me want to scream and I've lost my sight.
I take no action, only ideas and plots.
I want to smash my head of the wall,
Cut my self so i dont feel anymore
knock my self out so i can forget it all
I want pain, domination, macabre and gore.
after all i been through, i dont understand.
I got strong once before, but now i'm broken again.
need to close my eyes and fly to dreamland
from violence to myself i must abstain.
if i only i could rewind time...
I would've stopped all of this before it started.
words always sound so much sweeter when they rhyme.
my thoughts and emotions aren't for the fainthearted.
just need to runaway from all of this.
need to eliminate the poison and vermin
just to go back to that feeling of bliss